YOU ARE NOT INVITED

This last weekend I went to a party.  No one was invited but me!  It was in the bottom of a slimy pit, a mire so to speak.  That's right I had a pity party!  The party decorations at a pity party are pretty awful.  Like those "OVER THE HILL" ones, black and discouraging. In my defense I was a bit hormonal & a good friend reminded me that in Heaven there won't be crazy hormone roller coasters!  Can I get an AMEN sisters?!  I find the pity party to be like quick sand. I have never been in quick sand but I can imagine. Plus I have seen Star Wars so there's that.  Once I am in it, I move one way and sink. I move back and deeper still.  I have slid so far down before, that I was diagnosed with depression.  For years at a time, stuck.  So anytime I start to sink again, there is a very real fear that it will be like before.  That I will go so far down I will not recover.  And left alone I think that is true.  I cannot pull myself out of the mire.  I cannot save myself. My only hope is to look up, not all around at the mess I am in, real or perceived.  I don't remember to look up though.  I forget.  I forget that I know stuff.  I forget that I am new, that I am not the same person I once was.  I am a daughter of the King!  And HE in all HIS amazingness, gave me friends who remind me.  Who show up, uninvited, to the pity party and point me up, to HIM.  And once I set my gaze on HIM, the view changes drastically. I remember!  Psalms 40: 2-3  

Forgiven, beloved

Hidden in Christ

Made in the image of the giver of life

Righteous and holy

Reborn and remade

Accepted and worthy

THIS IS MY NEW NAME!

Jason Grey