I bought the lie!

I like to watch TV.  I am a  lover of mindless entertainment.  I enjoy the commercials even. My TV veiwing history includes ER, Grey's Anatomy, Friends, Will & Grace, Law & Order, NCIS, Without A Trace, Cheers, LA Law, MTV's Real World, and Survivor to name a few.  I have a new favorite.  I have been watching it for over a year now.  New season started about two months ago.  It's a drama, it's funny and has a good story line.  No big deal, one hour out of my week.  Entertains me.  

BUT...you knew that was coming.....I am slowly starting to see it differently.  To see all of TV differently.  This new show has me thinking about the lie Hollywood has been feeding me.  Not force feeding, I have been gobbling up it for years.  And I have enjoyed every bit of it!  Gone back for seconds.  On a recent episode the main character, a married woman, has an affair.  The scene is graphic, more than it needed to be to get the point across. And I watched every second.  But for the first time in my life I thought "Oh NO that couldn't happen.  That didn't, couldn't happen that way.  Someone would be in traction if it did!"  LIE! 

In the episode after that, the woman is in therapy..DUH! For an hour I listened to her explain how this affair was the first time she has ever felt loved, the first time she has felt alive!  She talked about her childhood, about her first marriage and how her life is falling apart currently and this guy made her feel vibrant, he cherishes her.  Her story was so compelling, her past so full of heartache I agreed!  I get it! I thought "You go girl, have that affair, let that guy love you! Wait....WHAT?? 

I bought the lie!  

I know the feeling she is looking for. I know that the result of what she did was not true love.  I have searched for love, for that alive feeling, to feel admired, to feel on top of the world.  I get it.  The world tells us, tells me, that this is how you get it.  I know through personal experience that sinning is never the way to happiness. Never!

The truth is, there is only ONE who gives me that.  I can describe to you in detail when it first happened.  When I knew without a doubt that I was loved, that I mattered! My God fills me up with life.  HE loves me and that is better than any drink, drug, or sex I could ever experience.

I am not throwing out my TV. Get real!  I will probably still watch my show, might fast forward though some scenes.  But I think I will turn the set off a little more often. Heck I might even read a book.